I think I was in the happiest mood ever today! Happiness zone is working! Everything is just going right. The eels are winning too.

Today was a fun fun fun day! And now I'm off to dance, just because I'm having fun.

Also, year 12 bbq tomorrow wooo!

*happiness zone*

and the eels win 42-22! it feels so good to watch the eels when we win. actually this is the first time we've won twice in a row since 2010....been a long time.

omg so happy. maybe the success of the eels coincides with my own successes. maybe. hopefully!

and today, I kinda forgot a morning tea with the principal. DOPE!
argghhhh how embarassing....... HAPPINESS ZONE!

ahem. anyway. we played good footy today with the big carlos (carli) [KHALI!!!] carving it up. damn such a beast. and lets see now, school is so fun. i love school. i dont get the people who say they hate school. you get to see friends every day! year 12 is by far the best year everrrr.

let's see now. oh yeah, parties. in a few weeks, the parties will begin! so many 18ths. and then looking forward to post hsc where I can have my own (severely delayed) birthday party.

let the good times roll!

I like this concept of "happiness zone" blogs.

This is the week of trials from tomorrow! Kind of excited! Spent like $25 on essay pens blah blah better be worth it. Speaking of essays got nearly all of them done just gotta memorise them. Except history extension.

Any this week my blog shall be a "trial free zone" and I will no longer speak of trials but speak of happier things.

Like tomorrow I will be playing footy with my friends. After being at the voice for so long,.it'll be a good break. Then voice resumes Tuesday. And year 12 bbq Wednesday.

And eels play tomorrow too! Fun wooo! So much fun to be had in next few weeks. Birthday parties, events etc.

Let the good times roll!

When I hear Olympics I'm like meh go Australia. Except for swimming I love etching swimming. But hen you start watching any Olympic sport it's always fun and it's hard to stop. But damn I have trials so I couldn't watch much of it. Got to watch about 15 muns though so its pretty good. Boring slow day. But now I can sleep in yayayay Worst is when you're worried that all the preparation you're doing isn't enough. Or when you've done SO much and you still fail.

the gift of giving is the best gift of all! especially giving presents, for no real reason other than to show someone you appreciate them.

and then you see your wallet and things change. LOL kidding, what's 50 grand to a **************** like me can you please remind me?

and now, time to write another English essay. and then do maths, then chemistry etc.

lifetimetable:

weekdays:

wake up
school
nap (optional) [however when doing this I can stay up till 1am or more no sweat)
study
sleep

next day
wake up
school
nap (optional)
study
sleep

weekends:
wake up late
study
sleep

next day:
wake up late
study
sleep

and this will go on for the next two weeks, and with two exams in my second week and one exam that only has two essays, it can calm down a bit

the voice is so successful at the moment. the hall is full. the singers are good and people are having fun. I think my idea to do the girra voice has been a success. :) job well done bissy

I'M ON FIRE TONIGHT.

3 essays done and going to do one more before I go to sleep! nek minnit, still fails trials.
I bet tomorrow ill end up watching the footy like usual which neutralises all the hard work I do. but today was a good day, I got a lot of work done. and it was a fun day.

edit: I FORGOT TO DO MY ENGLISH ESSAY AND IT'S DUE TOMORROW!! argh my tutors going to kill me

GOODNIGHT BLOGGER - except I shant be sleeping tonight

Aggressive panic is there such a thing? I was all calm about trials but with 7 days left...scared. not Ready. Especially not for drama and chemistry! Argh

I want to all night....but I have school in the morning! Oh the dilemmas. I'm worried now. I'm going to flop out.

Breathe kid breathe.

and I haven't blogged in a while; because trials are fast approaching and I am getting worried. I actually have 9 days till my first trial which is pretty scary.

anyway; school events. probably all over the net/Facebook by now but some "hero" came to school over the weekend and cleverly used super glue to screw up all the locks; meaning no one could get into rooms. admittedly it was pretty funny, but when they dismissed Year 12 at midday [to crazy cheers] I was ticked off; as I had woken up in the morning for no reason + I had wasted $22 on a 4 Unit textbook by accident. [don't ask]

so anyway; whilst doing drama sketches I got laughed at by year 8 kids due to the nature of my work. dear oh dear.

and yesterday; whilst studying for chemistry; I got 11/20 for multiple choice. someone kill me now. i'm going to go spastic on chemistry after tomorrow. I've done about 6 modern essays; and they've all been good apparently except yesterdays one, which I need to go over again. then I want to write an English essay and then yeah.

maths is so fun. I used to detest [okay not detest but could't be bothered] walking to maths doubles, or maths in general for that fact. now I love sitting in maths - maybe cause....................................my class is da bomb!!! haha but then, I enjoy all my subjects so it's all good in the hood.

tomorrow is UMAT; so all the smart people or med desiring people won't be at school. good luck kids! but school will be nearly empty. and by school I mean my grade. but; my grade or nothing!

I've been having crazy dreams lately, all of which involve me dying in some weird way.

isn't it weird; that now trials are approaching; more distractions are appearing? like I've never watched TV before except for a few cartoons and sports; but lately the number of good movies on TV have gone up.

like last week; spiderman 3 and the dark knight were on TV, today; the blindside; one of my favourite movies ever. and now I have to sit here doing my drama logs; when I could just be watching Sandra Bullock show off real acting skill. she's so amazzzziiiiinngggggg. WISH I COULD BE HALF AS GOOD AS HER!!

and what about those eels yesterday?! GO THE FREAKING EELS!!!! BEATING THE CHEATS AND HINDMARSH SCORING THE MATCH WINNER! GOOOOOOOODD STUFFF!!

and now; I better return to my studies. my good friends; the more i reflected; the more i realise i am screwed.

oh and the voice: girraween starts tomorrow. should be good! if it not for that dreaded history extension class....

^ check out my hectic friend own the Kids song by MGMT

he'll probably get pissed I shared this; but whats he going to do anyway.

And staying up till 3 am studying Isn't really effective. Not going to do that again especially when I have morning classes...I was gooooneee by 6th period.

And I forgot my pencil case at school today. Csb right? But you know it's so hard to motivate yourself to do work when you don't have any gear. And you can't be bothered opening your mouth to ask for stuff from friends.

And apparently I'm going to be earning 180,000 after 4 years after I marry a certain someone. Yet apparently my wife earns more than me. Except the equation to prove that doesn't work. Stupid Raj.

just going to take a break from work tonight. one essay down, 1 to go as well as a creative. (why did I say I'd  hand in all these essays tomorrow? arghh) looks like no sleep tonight. I've already missed the footy show....

and English today.....so much for using mod A and B to catch up some ranks haha....*shoots himself*

and now with school approaching it's end run, the usual debates have come up. Formal tables, post HSC trips, etc. and you know, its a good break from the usual DAMN DUDE HOW MANY HOURS DID YOU STUDY LAST NIGHT?! OH 6? NICE! I DID 12!

my maths tutor is so mad. she really doesn't do it for the money. she charged my half price today because I did most of the work and "she didn't do anything" which isn't true. Maybe it's time I repay her by doing good in extension maths...cause no one really cares about 2U unfortunately.

Today was my first "work event" kind of. I had a celebration party at pwc! It was so good. Well the food was anyway.

- sushi
- prawns
- prawn rice cakes with....wasabi! Hot!!!
- mocktails
- smoothies
- pizza
- pies
- chicken kebabs
- Lamb chops
- duck meat rolls or something

and I think my friend found an interest in a couple of girls haha.

And English tomorrow. Going to fail.

And today was the last time I can say first day of term is over.

But I enjoyed my first day back. Studied hard concentrated etc. Got owned by the two imbeciles that sit with new in chemistry haha Oh I love them. Hydrophillic.......

And then I got to give my best bear hug in a while. And catch up with people. And play great footy. Man I missed the Footy....scored the BEST try today. Great "set play" Except it was impromptu so not really a set play.

And double maths, sat with a different T today. And then. That awkward moment when your maths teacher acts as your wingman haha. Oh man I love my maths teacher and class.

And now to learn my English essay. Halfway memorised!

so today was my catch up day; all my homework; logs etc. and there was a lot more than I thought...I started at 1pm and I'm still going........and I ain't even done. oh dear....I wanted to sleep early today and even get an hour of the ps3 so I could go into school relaxed tomorrow. I didn't get to play a single minute of the playstation these holidays. probably a good thing but oh well. I actually have a list of games I plan to buy straight after HSC (should be cheaper by then too!)

- Kingdom of Amalur: Reckoning
- Ratchet and Clank HD Trilogy
- Rugby League Live 2 (looks decent)
- FIFA 13
- Assassins Creed 3
 and the new god of war game coming out

that should keep my post HSC holidays busy. and I also plan to do a lot of volunteer work in the holidays. It can be my version of schoolies - whilst people go get drunk I do something worthwhile/life changing/ beneficial.

and these south sydney rabbitohs. 2 tries in 2 minutes to beat the roosters at the death! ADAM REYNOLDS! that beast. to think Sandow was his predecessor and he only got to play because Sandow came to the eels...haha that worked well.

and tomorrow; school starts. looking forward to it; missed my friends; missed lunchtime footy (oh damn I have a lunch class for his. extension tomorrow) and I missed having casual study in class rather than studyign by myself at home. although during class nowadays I'll probably just do past papers since I dunno if we'll do any new content.

Last day of holidays as a school student because we graduate at the end of this term. That sounds really scary. As every day goes I hear more of "this is the last time etc etc as high school students "

"Time flows without pause. Yet time continued onwards." - Lightning FFXIII-2

Let's just say today was an eventful night where people from my grade embarassed themselves.

But good things;  Tishan had the coolest 18th yeah, the decorations were really nice and the food was special subcontinent origin delights haha. Even the non Indians liked it.

Photos forthcoming:

in love with leona lewis all over again; specifically these two videos:

WATCH + LISTEN to these two videos. and if they don't convert you, then i dunno.
just these two songs/performances are just amazing. I wish I could sing like her.................................

louder! loudeer!!

and I feel like watching monsters inc, playing final fantasy, reading deltora quest and playing footy all at the same time. but no, it's time to go do a chem past paper. did a maths paper today and it was okay! I got all the questions at the end too. win (Y)

And the eels lose again! Nothing to see here.

There's one thing that I'm jealous of, a supporter whose team is winning this year. But it's okay cause we'll win next year.

And actually another thing I'm jealous off, my friends that are ace at maths. I spent ages trying to learn some 2 unit maths where my friends take Like two seconds to do 4 unit maths. Ahhh so jealous.

And now watching the broncos game. Lucky broncos fans. They've only missed the finals like once in their 19 year history.

Year 12 is nearly coming to an end now.

Apparently parramatta are going to throw 2.1 million dollars at Luke Lewis over 4 years. I'm not going to hold my breath though, the eels board are in shambles at the moment.

And history extension is so slow. Our work rate is terrible and we hardly ever get work done. Sigh.

Anyway my work is dropping off. I need to do a lot more work over the next couple of weeks. Jesus I'm getting scared about trials and hsc now. OMG OMG OMG.

Breathe buddy breathe aye.

6 hour class of history extension today. Just kill me now.

getting worked up after reading that people walked through kings cross...................................I think im going to have a heart attack

so I woke up so early today to get to UTS, and it was cooooold. but it wasn't that cold thankfully, compared to other days. and the uts building....er lol don't know what to say....

and then after, the AMAZING SPIDER MAN!!!
okay time for some comparisons BEWARE SPOILERS:


actual spiderman:
original: really cool funny guy, peter parker is pretty imbecilic, etc
amazing: like the comics, spiderman cant actually shoot webs from his wrists, but makes a machine to do so. (i like the idea of the original movie better where he can just fire webs)


okay ceebs comparin. basically give me gwen stacey over MJ watson any day.


and then finding out in the comics SPOILERS:


that green goblin kills gwen stacey. well actually spiderman kills her, cause whenshes falling from the bridge after goblin throws her off, spiderman catches her with his web, but the stop in momentum, or "whiplash" breaks her neck and she dies.


school for drama tomorrow. on one positive note; all chem dot points done! except saponification which we havent done yet. but I will learn it myself tomorrow.


the cross....i cannot fathom.....


breathe, breathe, breathe 

More days are flying by, less days to recover them.

And tomorrow after uts. Amazing Spiderman with the cuzins whilst wearing a suit lol.

That'll be good.

oh man, parramatta got belted again. 40-0 after 48 minutes....thats nearly a point a minute
cry cry cry
end score; 40-24 so we came back a little...I guess....not really....blergh it's been a long year for eels fans and still a fair bit of pain to go.

bulldogs
storm
broncos (in brisbane)

even me the most optimistic parra fan cannot see light in the next three games. maybe its time to just doze off...and think back to 2009 where we did that fairy tale run from round 18-25 then got to the grand final and lost to a team over the cap. bring it back

I slept till like 12:30 today...oh dear not good. but then I study till later so sleep is good. no sleep = stress.
sleeping keeps me intact. I want to sleep now but its not even 7;30. maybe early goodnight for me today.

and to nicer things; I might have post HSC plans.

SINGAPORE!!

(hopefully, i dunno my parents didnt say yes or no, itll be a hard task to convince them especially since itll be an expensive holiday cause of all the shopping id do, but especially if I go with a friend or my good cousins itll be mad)

all my friends are going away to leave me behind in this sunburnt country (was that TS Eliot? cant remember)

the women come and go, speaking of Michelangelo

what is wrong with me.

Life of a year 12 student. That is still going to fail. No matter how many textbooks he uses.

And in other news; times have come to make big decisions in life. Ie sign a contract. First career changing decision I have to make.

Whatever I do. I won't look back.

happy days!!

could have been happier with one more opportunity.

ONE MORE.

and then I realised, I should study, Haven't done a single past paper yet. basically just finished two modules of chem notes, and an English essay. while my friends are going nuts with this.

queenslander war cry mob thing at the city today. WHY DO PEOPLE IN NSW GO FOR QLD? DOESN'T MAKE SENSE

and then my friend today. we were coming back from interviews in which I told her to talk about origin. and I was like you know who plays right...AND SHE DIDN'T KNOW

HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW. THAT IS QLD VS BLUES. DUMBFOUNDED RIGHT NOW.

zzzzz go back to study time zzzzzzz gonna fail zzzzzzzz

Oh no!!!!!! Blues lost again!  :(

so now it's official. The blues have not won for The whole duration of my high school life. That's so sad. Today's been a sad day. Probably gonna be even worse tomorrow.

It's times like this when I wish we could just be cavemen. Okay no I've never wished that.

And oh no....
James ruse has been the best since before we were born. Oh the horror. Oh the sorrow............

but tonight was still fun. With all the boys. And stacks on when we scored etc. Funnnn

SADNESS.

productive day? maybe. not really. actually...yeah maybe.

Went to school today! another early morning. :( but we needed to work on our group performances because after all, it's worth a LOT! since its about 20% of internal AND 30% of external. so yeah quite a lot.

and then, trains. they're really expensive actually. not looking forward to paying full fares going to uni every day next year....ayo. even HECs cant pay for trains. but I guess im blessed that I got a train station near my house and I can basically go anywhere.

and then tonight, after talking about my own things, I realised that sometimes, fate does play tricks on you. when you realise that situations you create, cause such a chain of events that effects others (not in a bad way) and then realising that to get something done, you have to work in a team to approach a systematic attempt at victory (okay wth does that even mean) even if it means humiliation. but I'm going to take one for the team. soon, I'll know, and if  if I succeed I've made 2 people happier.  hopefully 3, but yeah.

and then as the Deputy said, "being above average is just that, being above average." this applies to a lot of things. like... okay can't think of a good example. Well I can, but if I said it people would get the wrong idea.

it amazes me how little factors can make you see people in totally different ways. you don't realise how beautiful (metaphorically) someone is until someone else does, or until theirs a mutual relationship (and no, not of the romantic type) where you both want to get to know each other better. this is mainly a non same gender thing, but if you rephrase it, it works for everyone. just change realise how beautiful to....how much they mean or something. not that im hating on gays. please don't get that idea.

im no guru. gosh im corny, why do I bother typing this mumbo jumbo aahah

english essay! harwood! poetry! textual integrity! poignant metaphors! what does that even mean? (no one knows what it means, but its provocative. NO ITS NOT, IT GETS THE PEOPLE GOING)

edit: all people interested in physics, space or the universe check this out. its so cool

http://htwins.net/scale2/

going to write my daily post now so I can dig into studying tonight. I'M SO MOTIVATED RIGHT NOW;

So yeah woke up at 5:20 to go to the city today, and showering at 5:30 really left a lot to be desired. but other than that city weather was almost perfect and greatttt day.

interviews aren't as scary as I thought. looking forward to the next one. and the sandwiches were good (Y) and the orange juice was good too. something my friend T would have liked (she drank like 6 glasses at EY)

this girl from North Sydney Girls tried to get me into kpop haha....yeah she had no chance. I got full control over my mind and soul. I love to meet new people though. It's one of the things I'm going to love in uni I think, although I don't want to say bye to my current friends. which I don't plan to do so easily either. I mean yeah not everyone you can keep in touch with (but then again these days we got FB, twitter etc) but the ones you want to keep, you try hard for.

on the way back just put the headphones on and put the volume up. but I stick with my non kpop

time to study! blergh! lol jokes, MOTIVATED

ps: did I tell you my English table made a pact that if anyone of us get top 10, we have to do an underwear/singlet run of the school! haha I dunno how that motivates us, but it motivates me somehow. GONNA GO DO AN ENGLISH ESSAY!

Pss:

This photo reminds me of a good friend. And Ophelia if you read this, "disorder."

Gotta love it when a Cutie sits next to you on a train